I should be working, so I'll update! I feel like I'm grabbing at strings these last few days of my week. I have a bunch of work due in a few hours, and a difficult grammar assignment due Friday morning. After that I'm home free for the weekend though, I'll pull through just fine. I guess I'm mostly at ends because it's been eight days now since I've heard from Brian, and yes that is a new record and yes I have a feeling he's going to keep going. He mentioned in his last letter that he's been spending time away from computers, thinking about things. This makes me feel dependant and stupid at the same time, mainly because I rely on my computer to think about things but also because I still write him every day, like he's stuck in another dimension and I'm just trying to pretend that everything is okay. Perhaps I should send my socially awkward daughter and brilliant son tessering after him?I'll stop. But I feel like I'm not going to really be productive until I have him around again, and until he's around again, I'm just going to go to school and do my work and eat and sleep and play dirty hentai games but not write and not play my violin and not even turn the light on, what the hell, I'm sitting in the dark here.
I'm not really concerned that he'll ever read this. I think he has a few months of diary entries to catch up on, and I can't imagine anyone being interested in such a concentrated amount of me. I don't even read my archives, and I'm in love with myself. Aaaah I can't stop coughing, how charming of me. Which one of you bastard kids stole my cough drops? Oh, there they are.
That's it, I'm going to treat myself to something this weekend. And I have just the thing! The beauty school down the street does haircuts and different things for a low price, I can get twenty percent off with my student ID. Now, the only question is, what should I get done? They have haircuts, facials, body waxing (ow ow ow), manicures, eyelash tint, brow wax, colors (I've got that covered), permanent, weaves, updo. Hmm, as a starving college student, I should just go for the $6 eyebrow wax. I've got eyebrows like an old Polish lady, anyway. Then again, I've never had a facial. They're $27 and up, though. I'll get one someday, I guess. Like when I'm really heartbroken, and not just vaguely sad.
